Life is……..

It’s really very nice to go once again to the mountain. we picked chestnuts in my friend’s husband’s friend’s chestnuts farm.there was a lot of it..yun nga lang i forgot to bring the 10 gloves i bought from Emart last week……good ate Emie has a lot of gloves……Ate Vergie gave me a stick to be used opening the pods.dami kasing tinik.parang cactus…medyo mas mild nga lang ng konti…i was wearing jogging suits.but then the thorns were so strong,pag sumasabit ako e nasasaktan ang balat ko…..then ang mga kamay ko, i got a lot of stings too from the fruits …and mabusisi ako mamulot,talagang i scrutinize trhe chestnut well before puting them in my backpack…i think i collected some 5 kgs of them.ang dami diba? this time i didnt take my kids along with us kasi the last time i took them along with us,nilamok lang sila pareho,kahit naka tights e naabot pa rin ng mga lamok sa bundok ang balat ng dalaga ko,at naging bukol after a day….they came back from school when i was still there in the farm…and when i arrived ,they were so happy to see the half-full bag of chestnuts i brought home…

i was going to a birthday celebration….so i asked my husband if i could leave moohyeok with him.but he disagreed.kasi daw within 20~30 minutes e nag-iiiyak na at nami miss na ang magandang Umma niya……oops,that’s me…..my husband said he’d prefer me to leave our daughter than our son kasi daw kahit miss ako ni ate e hindi umaatungal ng iyak …mantalang itong si bunso e panay ang iyak at panay ang tawag sa akin….and when they are separated, like the other hasn’t come back from school yet or one isn’t home for a while,inip na inip sila pareho……one time our son went with my husband to my in-law’s house.hay naku panay ang tawag sa akin at inaaway ako sa phone….kelan daw ko sya susunduin doon kina lolo.miss na daw niya ako.bored daw sya kasi wala si ate….maraming drama ang bunso ko….pwedeng artista……at super kulit pa…..minsan ang sarap banatan ng palo…..

when we went ot the birthday party, of course kasama ko sila,but then ayaw pumasok sa loob ng bahay..they didnt even eat….kaya nga everytime we go somewhere i have to make sure na kumain na sila or else magrereklamo na gutom..kasi ayaw kumain ng hindi ko luto…..sometimes when i invite friends over, they would even ask me if i am the one who cooked the food or if i am the one who did the dishes…..

my daughter will survive in the philippines except for the mosquitoes..she would cry when mosquitoes bite her….she can’t even beat a mosquito,either she feels pity for them or she feels afraid…..mosqutioes is the only big problem if we go to the philippines for a vacation…..my daughter eats phil vegies, her favorite is okra ,she said the only vegetable she doesnt like is ampalaya…..

o sya i have to sleep now,malapit na naman chusok…for sure it won’t be an easy task….medyo tuliro na pc ko…..pati ako e tuliro na rin sa antok….

Last saturday as promised by Jeffrey we went to Pusan for a family outing,he promised that we would go to Pusan Aquarium….true to his words, we pushed thru with the plan eventhough it was already a little bit late….Had we not gone to Pusan, i would be in Kuwi to pick some chestnuts again.

Pusan is a 4 1/2 hr drive from Chonju City…we started at 10:30am , originally we planned to depart at around 7am or 8am. but we were so tired, i sleep at past 1am almost everyday, Jeffrey also sleeps late..and the kids were off from school every second and third saturday of the month.We used my husband’s sports car as it is faster than my Matiz…..it was so scary to drive fast but Jeffrey is already used to it, receiving love letters from the police whenever we go somewhere far, usually tickets for overspeeding.

We arrived in Pusan around 2:30pm, right away, my husband bought four entrance tickets..it’s expensive…but the price is worth it…it’s amazing inside, when the kids saw the clownfish,they exclaimed " WOW! NEMO is here"….they enjoyed watching different kinds of fishes, big and small, they got scared with the big ones like sharks…they touched the starfish…

the most enjoying part of our trip is our family get-together….it’s a very long drive….we got lost on our way home…and because of that, going home was very very tiring…..Gabriel (moo hyeok) has even a drama.he said to jeffrey…."Appa, we are so bored at the back-seat so you have to buy toys for me and Ate".but i told Jeffrey not to follow him….. he loves our children very much ,especially moo hyeok(gabriel) because he is so kulit… coming home took us more than 5 hrs drive….the money we spent, the time we spent is nothing compared to the time we spent together as a family……

there was a time in our lives when we trusted someone…someone we thought we could depend on especially in times of troubles….

in my ten years in korea, i have met different kinds of people,true friends, and people who would pretend to be friends only when they needed something from me……there are many kinds of them….

true, there is no perfect marriage ,maybe near perfect there is.and only if we strive hard to make our marriage better, it would be better.no one can do it for us except us ourselves… i admit my marriage was not perfect like any other marriages are, but we managed to bring it back to where it was before, thanks i didn’t give up…

i live a simple life, have big dreams, and i try to achieve those dreams step by step.. i know many people criticized me and many are still criticizing me for either they don’t know me deeply  or they don’t know their own selves..

i had a lot of come and go friends….am sure it was not me who made me abandon the friendship i had with them …. i could call those people USERS…..why? because after they got what they wanted from me, they made issues…. so what if i had a problem with my marriage? was i disturbing anyone during those times? no i didn’t… not even my family back home nor my husband’s family… i love my family…my precious family, my precious children and my husband. that’s why i didn’t give up… if i did, where would we be now?

this problem i had taught me a lot of things… before we had a problem, i was so satisfied with my life as a plain housewife and a hands-on mom to our two kids, everything was provided for by my husband, and i couldn’t complain about anything ,i have a BS degree but i always thought "FAMILY FIRST" .. my kids will be kids only once and i don’t want to miss those precious growing up years of them … i could never ask for more then….until  that problem came…it was unbearable , so painful, but no,that problem never put me down. it made me stronger,.made me strive harder, made me prove to everyone that i am worth more than others think i am……and yes, i won… we are still here..whole family…..a whole happy family…..again……

now i am still teaching  and at the same time taking care of my family.. me, my husband ,and our children….